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Sunday, October 11, 2009

STAR: Study Abroad Article


Jattebra That’s Swedish for gigantically good and pretty well sums up my abroad experience thus far. When I left home in August I was a little nervous, having never been out of the country and leaving my comfort zone but of course excited for the new experiences. The moment I landed in Sweden and met the other international students at the airport, I knew I was in for a good year and with the more I see and do it is true.
I feel like I have stepped back in time. I live in downtown Uppsala, which is 40 minutes north of Sweden’s capital, Stockholm, it is a beautiful city full of history and traditions. Viking stones from the 4th century, the largest cathedral in northern Europe and the Royal Castle(not too many of those in CA). It is amazing Uppsala Universitet was established in 1477(hard to believe) and is alumni of 15 Nobel Prize laureates, numerous royalty, public figures, Carl Linneaus and Anders Celsius. It is well known for being a university town and it really does cater to the students, with 13 student “Nations” spread throughout town in historical buildings dating back to the 16th Century. Only students are allowed in the nations and each includes a club, pub, library, café and restaurant. Everything a student could need and perfect place to keep warm during the cold, dark winter. There are always activities and entertainment to keep busy.
So far my favorites have been the gasques, like a university prom with a formal three course dinner, traditional Swedish drinking songs, singing, bands, dancing and lots of snaps(shots). Very fun And another important aspect of the swedish culture is Fika “A coffee break”, but not what we consider a coffee break, it is more just a time to get together with friends at a café, relax and enjoy some tasty treats and good company anytime of the day. Also can’t forget meatballs, hard ciders, IKEA, muesli, towel warmers, saunas, folk dance, bikes, Abba, choklarbols, falukorv and lingon berries, just to name a few of the things essential to the Swedish culture I have found.
On top of experiencing the local Swedish lifestyle and taking in all the nearby sights, including the Royal Palace in Stockholm, the famous Falun Copper Mine, Aland Island and many other museums and activities, I have also been able to travel to other countries. A few cruises to the surrounding countries of Helsinki, Finland and Tallinn, Estonia and many more travels planned for the upcoming months. The public transportation is great here and if you book it right the travel is too cheap to pass up. My class is going on a field trip to Berlin at the end of the month. How cool is that
The schooling system is also very different in Europe, which has been a bit of a transition. I do like the change and with my courses being all international students, it has been very interesting and broadening to hear such diverse and global perspectives on different issues or discussions.
Sure it took a few weeks to settle in, after confusing sour milk(yes they love it) for regular, which I have heard is a common mistake among the international students, trying to translate the laundry machines and signs, figuring out the currency, grocery shopping in a different language and the metric system. After all that I feel comfortable to call this home for the next nine months and excited for all it will bring.
It isn’t just what I’m learning in the classroom but also the different people from all over the world, adjusting to the new way of living, the culture and the many experiences that have already made an impact. This is the perfect time of life to see and do new things before the “real world” job and all the other responsibilities that tie us down. Coming abroad is one of the best decisions I have made, not only am I having the time of my life, but it has also given me confidence to handle any situation and opened my mind to different views.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Life in Sweden



Ahh I finally have time to write about my first impressions of Sweden. It seems like this week has gone by so fast, it’s been just over a week since I’ve arrived but feels much longer, which is good, I already feel comfortable and that this will be a good fit for the next nine months. I’m pretty well settled in and have the town somewhat figured out. It has been great meeting students from all over the world. Feels like it is a mecca for international students. Orientation week has been fun going to all the different Nations(student clubs/pubs) which is mainly what the student life consists of. There are 13 different nations named after “provinces” in sweden so the resident students are placed based on where they are from while us international students get to decide based on which one suits us best from the daily activities they have, pub atmosphere, club nights, library, food, gasques, etc. although we can still go to any of the events at other nations. It is really neat that all the nations are in old historical buildings throughout the city. Uppsala is so beautiful, first thing I noticed flying into sweden was that it is very green and lots of open space, but easy to say compared to most of the states haha, not covered with cement or big cities, buildings everywhere. I live right downtown, very convenient and can see the top of the cathedral from my room. Crazy to say that I live by a castle and a cathedral. Uppsala has a lot of history and it seems they really try to keep it traditional and original. There are viking stones around the cathedral park that date back to the 11th century and the famous “silver bible” in the Carolina Rediva library from the 8th century. It is amazing to see all the history. The campus is spread throughout town as well, most departments also being held in historical buildings, like the main university building is where the nobelaurettes come every year and also royalty throughout the year. It is so fun to just walk around and see all of these things and learn about them. It is a college town, the city was built around the university(started in 1477) and the cathedral. Everyone bikes from young to old and although it is a bigger city, 4th largest in sweden, it is very easy to get around. The student life is great so far. Fika is very big here and it is basically “coffee time” or just take a break and hangout with friends have pastries or coffee. Nations clubs and pubs take up most of the nights, cider is popular and very good. The swedish seem to be very easy going, but also very reserved. Life is in slow pace here and relaxed. Everyone has been very nice, I feel completely safe walking around at night and luckily for my sake everyone speaks english. I want to learn some swedish while I am here so I’m not the typical traveler who doesn’t know the language. Uppsala has a great downtown with shops, restaurants, outside dining, parks and a river that runs through separating the two sides, then up the street are the nations and the castle and cathedral. There are also many other museums like the Carl Linneus museum, he is one of the most famous swedes to come out of uppsala. His botanical garden is one of the sights to see. I made a trip to Stockholm, which is just a 40 minute train ride south. It was really fun and so much to see there. It is the capital of sweden and also the “capital of scandinavia.” We saw the Royal Palace, Nobel Museum, famous hotels and other museums. A lot to take in for just one day. It is a few little islands, all connect by bridges. We took a ferry boat around for the day and got off at each stop. It was different to be in the Baltic Sea. Stockholm is a very entertaining city with old history but also new advancements. Everything has been great this far, meeting so many new interesting people, fun city, new places, learning new cultures and experiences, good times! I am really glad to be here just not looking forward to the winter too much. Some friends and I are making trip plans for around europe as well so looking forward to that and o yes classes will fit in somewhere.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Diminishing or just transforming with the times?

"To love your country, doesn't mean you can't ignore its faults."

When I look back at what I imagine of being the American Dream in previous times, I think it is about creating happiness, for yourself and your family by providing a satisfied lifestyle through hard work and overcoming all the struggles along the way. Having the freedom of choice to pursue goals and dreams, while given the opportunity to have, life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. It involved finding success by climbing up the ladder and never giving up. Not necessarily the rags to riches story or giving every generation a better life than the previous, a better life than your parents, but rather just achieving a fulfilling life in every way possible. Even more so, it means being able to eventually settle down with a career of interest that provides enough income to be financially stable, having health and well-being, a loving family, a house to call home and also able to also enjoy the things you love most. Might sound pretty cliché, but I think that is what most of us hope for and work towards. Now it seems to me like that dream has changed or transformed throughout the years. It’s not that people don’t want these things and this lifestyle of course, but rather it is becoming increasingly harder to achieve with the way the world is turning and society is transgressing.

Going from one extreme to another, many now strive for wealth, fame and fortune. By living the high life, driving the coolest car, talking on the newest cell phone, eating at the finest restaurants; living the perfect life of luxury and privilege. But is it these things that truly make one happy? Or is it a facade they use to cover up their insecurities and false realities? Far from the contradictory lives most of us live, trying to handle life’s daily obstacles. The classic American Dream of freedom and happiness has been corrupted by society and drastically transformed into greed and money. It’s not about what you’ve done with your life, the accomplishments you’ve earned, the contributions towards improving society or the life of others, but what objects you have accumulated, the house you live in, the car you drive, the tags on your clothes. Is it the more you can show for through materialism and consumerism, the better, more successful person you are? Everything about the American Dream has weakened including the values and morals that come along with it. We are defined and judged by our possessions, positions and financial worth more so than our talents, abilities or achievements.

Many people today view their role models or heroes as celebrities or politicians not successful, contributing people of influence. People in power are more corrupt than ever before with politicians taking advantage of their status to gain personal worth and often financial benefits as well, to priests “men of the cloth,” “God’s messengers,” who are caught molesting the children of the church. What has our world come to when we can’t even put faith and trust into our own ministers? We already knew politicians were dishonorable but preachers? Come on. Just a few things on the list to vent about that are questionable in our society.

Don’t want to completely start off with a dark, depressive attitude so in a brighter and more uplifting outlook there are numerous, countless things that make our country great and justify why we should be so very lucky to live here. And in reality, not just me trying to prove a point, there really are more decent people and good qualities that outweigh the bad in our society. I truly do see it everyday from complete strangers, helping humankind for the common good, not to be acknowledged or rewarded. But like with everything else and as the motto goes, it is the few bad ones that give everyone else a bad name or reputation and it sure is easier to point out the bad than the good. It is true that one mistake or fault is remembered forever even when it included an eternity of greatness. Not trying to be cynical of the country I love and am proud to be a citizen of by criticizing my fellow citizens but opening our eyes.

Americans are not ignorant or foolish. We are smart, sensible individuals. We represent the freedom and liberty our nation was built upon. We are what other countries idolize and strive to become. We live the lives other people wish they could experience. We have some of the best and most advanced educational systems, medical care, technology, armed forces and government services. Along with the numerous resources and supplies(although quickly vanishing) to fill the demands of our people. We don’t and hopefully never will have to worry about the necessities to survive, far from the harsh realities of children in Darfur or Uganda for example. Most of us have accumulated more in a year than families in other countries do in a lifetime. We are very fortunate to live here. America is the most powerful country, the leader of the world. Which doesn’t just come with the name, but by the people who exemplify it; we are what distinguish us from other countries. Take pride in being an American and use your freedom to its best. If you live here; love it and become apart of it. As the times change, the people, ideals and societal standards change, but as long as we remember freedom doesn’t come easy; it comes with attitude and respect.

Beginning with the transgression of people, starts at childhood. It is where our base and foundation are first built upon. It used to be that childhood was full of imagination and play, where minds were shaped and created. Now children are bombarded with materialism, products and objects are consistently and constantly in the media to shape young minds to become consumers: the ultimate goal of society. Children are no longer able to experience true childhood; playing outside until the sun goes down, being easily entertained by a simple cardboard box or playing with a jump rope. Parents plop their kids in front of the TV and continue on with their busy lives.

With all of the societal pressures from our media and culture to become an adult and a consumer, it instills the mentality and pressure for kids to grow up faster. Whatever happened to “I don’t want to grow up, I just want to be a kid?” Now our culture is full of elementary children sporting the newest cell phones and i-pods, spending more time zoned out on the computer, TV or Wii. God forbid they go outside and experience the “real” world not the virtual one they are living in.

So many children grow up with no discipline or beliefs, which give them the freedom and mind-set that they can do whatever they please without consequences for their actions. They are not learning morals but the latest celebrity gossip, which is opposing to the image we should strive to ingrain in our youth and the future. It is very contradictory to what it takes to become successful.

The pregnancy rate of adolescents has sky rocketed. It is basically kids having kids themselves. This relates back to the parenting, if kids have no role models or guidance they are lost and looking for attention; leading them to act up in all the wrong ways. The parents are setting their own children up for failure. Children go to school to learn “book smarts.” Sure they learn through their social environment how to handle different situations and problems, how to be socially acceptable and how to communicate with their peers, but it is ultimately the parents responsibility to instill real world lessons to their children and guide them so they can become valued and sensible; the knowledge and skills to survive and live decently. It is so important for parents to create that relationship with their children to lead by example and give them support.

Now to the discussion of technology, it does have a lot to do with who people are becoming and where our society is headed or has already arrived. Don’t get me wrong, technology has been the source of many great, life improving advancements such as healthcare, new forms of accessible communication, globalization, safety innovations, education; all of which assist in the progression of society. But realistically, technology has created lazier citizens. We are relying on technology to do everything for us and it is overpowering the human race, it is becoming who we are as a society. Between on-line degrees, working out of the home, chat rooms and social networks, we are loosing ourselves and personal human to human communication. Back in the day(or even just twenty years ago) I bet our grandparents would have never imagined or thought possible that everything from on-line shopping at the comfort, convenience of your couch, to GPS with talking directions, internet at palm of your hands, to an electronic toothbrush would exist. Along with programs like World of Warcrafts and Sims, “gamers” are simulating a new life and image for themselves, full with real money and interaction between other on-liners. A whole world created and lived on the computer screen. It is causing us to loose personal connection, which creates a lack of social skills to function in society. People can’t handle themselves in a real social situation, because they are so custom and comfortable to hiding behind the computer screen and not having to deal with life on the outside. What is to blame for all this change? Is it due to technology and other advancements or have people changed with the times? Is all of this technology honestly helping or hurting our world, our people as we progress in time? When does it become too much? At what point will we as living, breathing beings surrender and realize it has gone too far? With all of this technology, it allows us to do more, to be more, to see more but how much is enough? Through the accessibility of technology; doctors are curing cancer, healthcare has been taken to a new level, education is at the cutting edge, everyday beneficial changes are being made to strengthen and help our world, but is it overly transforming?

Many new advancements make us question if they really are good for society? Like finding new cures or vaccinations for instance, pretty radical philosophy but some argue that even though it is great to fight off these horrible diseases, cancers, etc. it is also going against nature. As hard and twisted as it is to understand, it is “God’s way” to control population growth. Or personally I think it would be a lot more logical and ethical to just keep control of all these “octimoms” running loose and only be allowed to have as many children as you can financially aford. It would help many aspects of society like control our welfare problem, over population, poverty and create smaller schools. The money saved would give us more resources to care for those citizens truly in need. The ratio of births to deaths each year is no longer balanced or relatively equal as it was in earlier eras, it is off the scale incomparable. Our resources are being extremely over utilized and other problems are created that accompany this.

This brings me to the topic of families transforming. We are so busy with everything from home life, the workplace, the family and all else in between, that we don’t even have the time to savor any of it. And forget about time to relax and possibly do something of enjoyment not only things we feel obligated to do. Family time, family dinners and family nights are becoming pastimes when these are the kinds of events that should take priority. The time spent with family and friends should be cherished and special, not put on hold for all of life’s other commitments and responsibilities. Life really does get in the way of living, it sometimes seems. Americans are very good at “spreading themselves too thin.” We are so caught up in all we do and our daily lifestyles or routines that we loose sight of who we are and what we truly want. It is so easy to get stuck in a rut and follow the same tedious schedule day after day. We are slowly loosing ourselves in our lifestyles, becoming lost, confused, twisted and used while using it as an excuse to avoid the actuality of what we really want and desire. It shapes us, making it superior to all else, even family and health. Never wanting to cause change or leave our comfort zone of what we know and trust. When we really are living anything but comfortable, dealing with the daily stresses and living just the motions of life not life itself. We are afraid to inflict change or try something new, scared the outcome might fail. But wouldn’t it be harder living with the regret of never knowing what could have been than to be a little risky?

Work is causing people to forgo their lives. Not just a job for the sake of making a living, but living to only work. Don’t get me wrong; we can all only hope we find a job we love and are passionate about and sure we work because we obviously have to, but there comes a point when we have to also realize there is more to life than just bringing home the bacon. Once again, moderation really is the key to success. Although it proves a challenge, the balance of work, family and “you time” are very important and make for a happier, healthier individual.

We are becoming too busy to spend time with the ones we love. We need to make the time in our busy lives to put aside for family and friends. Not only are we distant in family interaction, but throughout the years becoming much more geographically distant as well, which makes it harder and idealistic to build a family bond. What happened to the days when there was legacy? Children would attend the same high school as their great grandparents and the family name and the reputation built was actually something to be proud of. We aren’t just separated by different neighborhoods but by state borders, which makes it that much harder to build a meaningful relationship with your family.

Speaking of relationships, it seems as though they have also changed in altering ways. Nothing lasts; is it because it is easier to “get around,” too many distractions surrounding us or that we can’t have continuity, do we get bored with our relationships? No one can trust one another and couples are resorting to alternatives or others to fill that need. I see relationships based purely on the “idea” or image of being with someone more than the genuine love for each other. Couples are not happy or truly in love, but they long to feel needed or dependent on someone else so they stay together. Trust and commitment seem to be dying or at least harder to come by with the highest divorce rate ever and people relying on the mentality that “you can always just get a divorce if it doesn’t workout.” The meaning of marriage is loyalty, commitment and love. What happened to sticking to your vows, "To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part?" Not saying that previous eras never cheated on their lovers or experimented with different partners. Just seems like it is unfortunately all too common now and easily forgiven. When if you truly love someone, they should forever be the one and only in your life. Couples are more into the physical, sexual desires of a relationship than actually having a true bond of love that is everlasting. Don’t get me wrong, the attraction and passion has to be there, but having that connection with someone to last forever is most important. The feeling of comfort when you know they are the one you want to spend your life with and can’t survive without. If this is present in a relationship, all of your needs will be filled and there is never thoughts or temptations to look elsewhere. Physical pleasure is just one aspect to a true, satisfied relationship. It is reassuring to know that you can actually relate to your lover and share a beautiful life together.

Back to technology, on-line dating is the new thing, overtaking the old, traditional methods of actually meeting people in the natural. People are creating relationships through different websites. It is understandable to use these sites with the direction our culture is turning and busy lifestyles, but when people are relying on communicating strictly through the computer it gets to be a little absurd. Especially knowing that it can be deceiving, a false front they are portraying. How do you really know one is being honest? And isn’t that what a relationship should be based upon? Is a virtual conversation and exchanging of pictures a real relationship filled with romance and love? Needless to say, many long lasting marriages have been formed from on-line dating, but it is still strange and definitely need to be safe. It is a far cry from what began as high school sweethearts to the 67 years of marriage my grandparents lived and loved together.

How people live their lives really does contribute to the way society is shaped and the direction our country takes. The American dream isn’t necessarily about working your way up, overcoming the struggles and obstacles to become successful, but doing whatever it takes to reign on top. Money, power and greed have corrupted our world and people will lie, cheat, steal and kill to get it. Ethics, morals and values are no barrier.

I like to believe that I am doing the right thing by going to school and earning a degree to get a decent paying career, providing for my family, etc. Basically that all my hard work will eventually pay off to create a better lifestyle for myself but I often wonder is it a waste of time and money, or will it pay off in the end? Should I join the rest of the people who get by fine doing the bare minimum? What is the incentive of working hard when the middle, working class essentially get penalized by having to make up for the slackers of society? Those that have nothing or don’t work for anything are rewarded by the ones doing the right thing of working hard and paying their way. Our government assists those that can’t provide for themselves so it creates the idea that they can just rely on it and not have to worry. While the citizens that actually do work for what they have, not only are struggling to get by but also paying the way of others. Not saying we shouldn’t help out our fellow citizens that are less fortunate or in severe circumstances, to help them get back on their feet, but I am talking about the ones that take full advantage of the system when they are able to work. There is no integrity or pride to work hard anymore. Whatever happened to the American dream of earning everything you have? I tell myself I will be rewarded later in life and it will all be worth it, but it is sometimes frustrating to believe when I see so many stories of people getting defeated and taken advantage of. The good people unfortunately finish last all too often in this mixed up world. Makes me question myself and see why so many people eventually just give up. But on the contrary it also gives us more incentive to push ourselves and become more than the rest, to live a better life. My ethics and morals of work are constantly pushed and twisted by temptations, but I know I am fulfilling my own goals by working hard to create the life I’ve imagined, even if I feel it sometimes goes hopeless in its entirety.

The richer you are, the more taxes you pay. So, if you work hard your whole life to become successful and get a high paid position it should be your obligation to society to give more of your money away? Shouldn’t it be that if you work hard, you should be rewarded, not punished? We live in America, the land of the free. How free is it really? We have a very irrational, corrupt system that sometimes penalizes those that endure through the ups and downs. It seems like it is a system of balance, with the wealthier citizens making up for or “balancing” out the less wealthy. All a part of the high cost of living in America we are cursed by everyday. Whether it is fair or not, it seems inevitable at least in this generation.

My parents only had my brother and me because that is what they knew they could sufficiently provide for with the opportunities to go to college and do the things we wanted. My mom and dad have worked hard their entire lives to put food down on the table and supply a decent lifestyle for my family, but it kills me to see the financial problems they have recently encountered with this economic crisis. They truly get screwed and hit with everything, causing them constant stress. If they were less successful would they get the assistance they need falling into government care and getting it subsidized?

The working, middle class citizens have to literally be dead to go to the doctor, because of such high premiums, extreme deductibles, co-pays and ridiculous insurance rates that they are afraid to even use their own healthcare plans because of the expenses it will cost them. While the ones on welfare or government subsidized care have no problem taking advantage knowing they don’t have to pay for it. The unemployed and illegal immigrants get too many privileges.

How about having to personally pay for the damages when an illegal immigrant without insurance hits your car? What is wrong with this situation? So much for taking care of our own contributing citizen’s right? Once again, having to make up for the rest of society and being punished for doing right. What kind of message is this sending to the future generations of America? If you pay taxes, contribute to society and what do you get in return?

Or all the ethnic and cultural college scholarships, where you have to be a certain ethnicity to apply? Not once in all the research I’ve done have I ever come across a Caucasian scholarship for a pure breed white girl. Of course not, that would be considered racism. How about reverse racism? I think in this day and age, with whites quickly becoming the minority; this is the bigger issue. I am all about equality and I know we(whites) mistreated and abused Native Americans, African Americans, Asians and I’m sure the list can go on, but the past is over and nothing will ever change that or take it back. How long will it go that we have to make up for our ancestors mistaken legacy? Isn’t that contradictory of the mistreatment they underwent? At what point, if ever, can we all just be equal and forgiven of all mistakes, judgments and stereotypes? More effort needs to be made to create parity among all. I know we are not all given the same, equal opportunities and it will probably never be that way, but it would be nice to see more widespread unity.

Especially with the declining state of the economy we are experiencing; success or just surviving is proving to be a struggle, making the American Dream even harder or unachievable. It is very discouraging to know people are working jobs they hate because it’s all they can get for the time and should be lucky to even have. Forget about traveling, going out or luxuries, it is about survival.

The price of living is not relative to the wages and salaries that most people make. Hence why we are in more debt than ever before and credit is the staple source of reliance. In comparison, my mom paid off her first car by herself working minimum wage as a lifeguard, for only one summer. Without the help of my parents or taking out loans there would be no way I could make enough money in one summer to buy a new car. It is not even possible these days, hard enough to just get the down payment and keep up with the monthly fees over a four year period. Along with that, my grandparents outright owned their house as a young couple on their own without obscene mortgages, home loans or severe debt. Obviously this goes with everything else, all the other costs of everyday living like gas, bread, etc. Of course prices will increase with time, but as time also increases it seems to be more and more out of reach. It has gotten to a point where it is unobtainable to keep up or catch up with the high costs of living, always a step behind if you want to have anything and forget about investing or saving with the never ending debt to pay off. This all also contributes to people working till the day they die, because they have to pull out of their retirement plans and 401K’s early. So the dream of working hard to eventually have a good retirement has also proven to be another challenge. There are many factors and obstacles like the state of the economy preventing this “American Dream” of becoming reality, making it unobtainable that it really is just that: a dream or idea. It is so distorted by the truth that our perception of it is surreal.

Well, enough with the demolishing of our society and pointing out a few of the many problems. This wasn’t intended to be completely negative. Rant and rave? Maybe, but I also want to say and clarify that there are great people, many of them in fact. Everyday I am proud and fortunate to live here no matter how pessimistic I come across. Life is beautiful and society as we know it is not completely going down the drain, things are definitely changing, but there is still hope. Changing for the better? Hard to say, I’ll let you be the judge of that.

I understand every nation has problems of their own on varying levels, some worse than others and very incomparable with how civilized or advanced a society is. I am very lucky to have my health, my family, my freedom and my opportunities; the things we easily take for granted.

Since the time of human creation, we have evolved and will continue to evolve as the times change, but I can only hope we will still hold the same ideas and beliefs our ancestors shared. Just because the times change and everything changes along with it, doesn’t mean that we have to also change who and what we are. This country was not built with a computer, but by the hard work and determination of the natural, inherent mind and body. With that said, live your own “American dream”; don’t give into society and media’s standards or stereotypes of living. Very few of us have the “perfect life” and true happiness can only be measured by the individual.

Maybe it’s not that our society, even world in general is diminishing its standards, but just transforming with the times and keeping up with the demands of change. New era, new outlook? Although, things are transforming, some things remain the same; we are human and only we can create this change.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Grandpa

Grandpa was a wonderful, loving husband, son, brother and father. He believed in old school ethics and values, worked hard throughout his life to provide a good lifestyle for his family and take care of them the best he could, giving them everything they needed. He achieved many great accomplishments in his time from pursuing his education to a Master’s Degree, always intrigued to learn more at every stage of his life. Lt Col in the United States Marine Corps for 23 years, where he served in WWII and the Korean Conflict and was stationed all over the world. He served on the Nevada State Cabinet as Director for the Department of Motor Vehicles. All of these accomplishments, experiences and memories are what filled much of my Grandpa’s life but he would never let those things interfere with his family and friends which are what truly shaped my Grandpa and made him the man he became. Grandpa was happy to just be in good company and conversation. He was a very humble man and always gave everyone a fair shot.


After retiring from the Marine Corps, he was able to slow down and spend time with my grandma, where they finally settled in Las Vegas for the final phase of life together. They lived an easy lifestyle and had everything they ever needed; each other and a love that no one or nothing could take away. I often think about how in the last couple years when visiting with my grandparents, my grandpa would sometimes become upset and get a little irritated with my grandma, but he would always be sure to hold onto her hand and say thank you and how much he appreciated her, telling her to take a rest. Even at this stage in his life, he still loved my grandma like the first day they met. It is love like this that is special and rare.


He lived his last years very simply enjoying everything around him, not big for travel or luxuries, but rather the time spent with family and friends. Whether it was just watching and feeding the birds in the backyard or reading the newspaper every morning, it was these little things that filled his daily routine. When he would come visit us on the coast, he loved to sit on the pier and watch the waves crash in and the surfers carve back and forth.


He instilled the passion of writing in me and I have inherited many other traits from my Grandpa that I hold dearly and am very thankful for. Along with showing me the best free entertainment out there: people watching. I remember when mom, grandma and I would go shopping or even farther back when we would go down to the strip in vegas and all he wanted was a nice bench to sit at while we did our business. We would come back and he would be immersed in conversation with complete strangers or in your later years taking a little snooze, but it was all he needed and I’m sure more entertaining than any vegas show. I’ll have to admit it, I love to sit and people watch as well, pretty funny.


Even when Grandpa couldn’t get many words in, he still always listened and gave good advice. Full of clever remarks, witty jokes and often random information sure to spice up any dull moment are some other things I will always remember when I think back on my Grandpa.


I will always hold these memories close in heart and will continue to carry his traits and lessons I’ve learned from him throughout the rest of my own time here.


He was always very active up to his final years, proof of this is shown in his numerous handball and boxing champion plaques and rings that fill his "look what I did" room from his younger competitive years. Then as those years passed, he could always be seen at the local fitness club swimming laps and then meeting up with his buddies in the sauna for good company and conversation. It was his outlet to get out of the house and grab some fresh air and energy.


As I finish writing this and reminiscing on my memories with my grandpa it is hard to hold back the tears, but I know he is watching over and would love us all to just soak up life and live it the way we choose. He lived by the motto of living easy and freely; less is more. Which we can all use a little reminder of.


Grandpa made quite a name for himself, coming a far way from the little town of Turkey River, Iowa he was born into. Working hard for everything he earned and always believing, are what got him through his journey and lead him to his final destination. Through the trials and triumphs that accompany our lives, he never let them bring him down and always survived.


May his spirit live on forever in all of us and show us all how important it is to take the time to savor our surroundings and slow down to enjoy the company of one another. He lived a fulfilled life with the ones he cherished most, doing what he loved. I am blessed to have had him as my grandpa and experience the impact he left on me.


Well Grandpa, we are returning you to sender, save me a spot up there and don’t worry Grandma, Peppy and Kitty are in good hands with my mom and I.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Nor Cal Hiking


With Spring officially upon us, and the sun shining bright, it’s time to dig out your hiking boots and hit the trails. Luckily for us, living here in beautiful Sonoma County, this area and surrounding areas are filled with great trails to suit every hiker from the casual stroller to the most extreme outdoors men. With the wonderful spring weather that brings about flowers in full bloom and luscious green hillsides from the winter rains, everyone should find the time to get out and enjoy the scenery. Take advantage of Nor Cal and experience all the scenic locations available, which there is definitely not a shortage of.

From an after class social hike with friends at local hot spots like Sugar Loaf Ridge, Armstrong Redwoods, Petaluma Adobe, or even just Crane Creek Regional Park around the corner from campus to the more intense and longer weekend outings at places a little further like Golden Gate State Park or China Camp. The options are endless, the views are awesome and the benefits are valuable. Good for the mind, body and soul.

If you’re wanting to see more than the mountains, make for a day trip and take a scenic drive to the coast to places like Sonoma Coast State Park nudged between Bodega Bay and Jenner or Point Reyes National Seashore that expands to over 150 miles of rocky, coastal trails. Beyond the vast tidelines of Point Reyes, lie the surrounding forests, which are home to bobcats, coyote, raccoons, deer and elk. You might even get lucky and catch glimpses of elephant seals, whales, sea lions and snowy plovers throughout the different seasons on the coast side. It is a perfect opportunity to experience the differing habitats of the rugged beaches to the mountainous terrain.

To help kick-start your fun, hiking adventure, here are two of my favorite places in the area...

In close range is Annadel State Park, a local favorite of mine, nestled in the mountains of Santa Rosa. Highlighted by Lake Iisanjo and Ledson Marsh, tucked in the heart of the park, Annadel has over 35 miles of hiking ranging from the very moderately graded ‘Spring Creek Trail’ to the more strenuous elevation of ‘Steve’s "S" Trail’. Leading through a forest of Redwoods and Douglas fir, both are likely to be enjoyable and provide stunning views of the various wild flower covered hillsides, sword ferns, blue-eyed grass and abundant wildlife. And if fishing is of interest, don’t forget to stop by Lake Iisanjo, for a mid-hike breather and try catching some black bass or bluegill.

For the more advanced hiker, there is the famous Muir Woods, at about an hours drive south off the 101, and more than worth it. Muir Woods is a National Park and quite the sight to see. Once you step foot into the park, you will quickly find for yourself why it is such a tourist destination with more than 800,000 visitors from all over the world each year to get a glimpse of nature at its best. The entrance of Muir Woods is "not so natural," with paved paths full of tourists and cameras in hand to capture the moment, but is a decent enough walk for the less adventurous hiker or just those who want to see the spectacular sight without working up a sweat. Covered by the tallest type of tree in the world, the Coast redwoods, which only exist in northern California and southern Oregon along a narrow 500 mile coastal strip, as well as numerous other plants and animals are all apart of the old-growth redwood forest, Muir Woods. Some of the redwood trees date back to over thousands of years old and can get as large as 350 feet tall and 18 feet in diameter. Tanoak trees, ferns, redwood sorrel, stellar jays, black-tailed deer, and banana slugs, may also be seen along the trails. Past all the hubbub and excitement from new visitors is where the ruggedness begins and where the true hikers are lured. Muir Woods has various trails ranging from hour long loops to exhausting all day hikes, with connecting trails to create your own destination or distance. After the initial inclines of most of the advanced trails, hikers are stunned by the breath taking views that reach as far as the ocean in the distance to mountain tops overlooking the entire park. Immersed in the redwood trees and flowing streams of this coastal forest, Muir Woods provides a place of pure serenity and
rejuvenation.

While in the vicinity of Muir Woods, are other great hikers destinations, including Mount Tamalpais, standing at a 2,570-foot elevation, high above redwood groves and oak woodlands. Over 50 miles of trail within the park that connects to a larger, 200-mile-long trail system including that of Muir Woods. If you’re more of an ocean lover than a mountain trekker, check out Muir Beach and Stinson Beach along the coast.

If you need to ease the stress of course exams, work or just want to catch up with some friends or take a break, a good hike is sure to do the trick. Even if you’re crunched on time, a short and simple trail can still provide a lasting effect to make it through the rest of the day. The fresh air and feeling of freedom possess energy to refuel and handle the busiest of schedules. So, grab your shoes, preferably a comfortable pair with good traction, your eco-friendly, reusable water bottle and hit the trails my friends. I promise your computer will still be there when you get back. No excuses!

Feeling at Peace


When I am here I feel at ease, as if the world we live in is perfect and all my problems drift away. The thoughts of peace and happiness flow in as each wave crashes down. Looking out over the vast horizon, as far as the eye can see, it appears as if there is no end. So big and powerful this place is, but when I am here it feels so calm, so relaxing, so refreshing. As monstrous and forceful as I know it can be, I sense only tranquility. Believing it could do no harm or violence.
Watching the dolphins jump into the waves as the sunset falls into the water reassures me of how beautiful this world can be. There is no expensive show or high-tech special effects that could manipulate the experience. This sight I was witnessing is pure, natural beauty that only the wild can possess. The whole sky fills with shades of every color, looking too fake to be true. A picturesque scene, that is so perfect and so real. As I sit there immerged in this setting with nothing distracting me, it as if I am on top of the world, free as the dolphins below. Too much too see, too much to feel that I can soak it all in.

I am in an isolated existence away from the daily life and times we are surrounded by. I am away from the people, away from the mayhem, away from technology, away from society. Solitude surrounds my body and everything, everyone disappear along with the sun as it lays down for rest. Restituting my own body back to simplicity and clarity. The breaths of clean, coastal air fill my entire body with serenity.

At this time in the day with nothing but the sound of the waves, the changing colors of the sky and the serene sea waters is where I want to be forever. Where I go when things get too complicated, too hard and it instills a sensation of rejuvenation. As I leave this place, the experience alone is enough to make it last. Gaining a new energy and consciousness to make it through as I go back into the world I just momentarily escaped from. I am only in this place for a short time even though it seems like an eternity.

The freshness of the ocean breeze and coolness of the wind creates a feeling of purity and nature. So far from the reality of our world where we are trapped in the urban lifestyle with no escape into the natural, yet it is so close in distance to the place we live in everyday. The affects of this place possess an atmosphere of a different world, a million miles away. Not only a different place physically but in state of mind. I am in balance of mind, body and soul. It is hard to even describe the essence of this place and the aura it gives.

Music to my Life


It is a simple object that possesses so much impact and so much beauty. It not about what it is, but about what it does. It can brighten your day, change your mood, and share your feelings. The melodies and music it creates are endless. It flows with the harmonies of our lives. We can guide it to be our outlet, our healer, our inspirer, our energizer. Sometimes we use it to get pumped up and rock out. Other times use it to relax and slow down. Or sometimes it just the background tune of our lives. We listen to it when we are driving, when we are dancing, when we are mad, sad and happy. It can play for every mood, every situation and every person. It is versatile; it can go with anything and anywhere, follow or lead. Play to the rhythms of the blues, the chords of country, the notes of rock.

It is so peaceful, to hear only the soft strumming of a pic against the strings. Something so simple in shape and design, yet so complex in its creations. It can play to the softness of a baby sleep or the roughness of a rock concert. It can provide a masterpiece for a symphony or just a jam fest with a garage band. It doesn discriminate and allows everyone to get joy from it. It can be a heavenly tool that is part of a tradition. Some play for their family, their culture or their religion. While others just play for fun, with friends or for themselves. Some play for the fortune, for the fame or as a career. It is everything different to everyone. A valuable tool with so much promise that can be heard far and near. The same six strings are able to produce music that is diverse and unique, just as the artists playing it. It is a gateway of expression from what inside to the outside world, for no one to hear or everyone to share. Can be as free or restricted as you choose it to be.

The energy and attitude opens endless potential to music. A six string instrument that with each and every note can sound so individual and distinct in its own way. Every time it is played, something different, something new and something beautiful is created. It is the door to infinite possibilities of expression, which it has proven over the years all over the world. Countless songs, albums and records have their success to contribute to this instrument.

This powerful instrument can remind us of special moments in our lives and take us back in time to unforgettable memories. Whether it is the memory it shares on the first dance at your wedding, the song to boost your spirit or the song to remind you of that special someone. The impression it leaves is felt throughout and forever.

Comforting Idea

At first the idea of this working seemed like it would be destined to fail given the circumstances. But I wasn going to let a stereotype or common thought ruin the idea of what we have. Something so special and so meaningful, to just be pushed aside based off what our heads may be telling us versus what our hearts know is best. It wouldn be a risk taken but rather a mistake made if we didn follow our instincts and feelings about this, about us. All the other things are small sacrifices to the overall, ending of happiness together. No measures of distance or time can come between us or jeopardize this feeling of genuine, true love we have found in one another. For something to feel this right and this powerful I know it is real. How much we are a piece of our lives now, I couldn imagine life without it. It is something I have never felt before, an experience that is indescribable. Too much for others to understand and too much for me to even believe.

Our time we had together seemed merrily perfect. Hard to imagine in such a short time two people can become so close. After the first day with you, it felt so comfortable and everything just felt so right. We can be ourselves and not have to worry. Feels so natural to talk with you, laugh with you and be with you.

I have faith in our destiny together and belief that it will work. Living for each other and the things we need, not what others want for us. As long as we have each other I know it will be okay. Someone to talk to, some to love, someone to care for, someone to hug is what we are waiting for. When the days are rough, I want it to be only us that can brighten them.

I imagine it will be easy once the day comes, the idea we have of us will turn into reality. If we follow our hearts they will lead us to the right direction. I am not scared because my heart won lie when it comes to you and I. Being able to see you, feel you and talk with you is where I want to be for all eternity. The idea of sharing an entire life with someone can be scary, but the idea of us is promising.

I feel like a kid again dreaming of a family of my own, a house to call home and the one to be with enduringly. The dream idea may just be playing out into reality. We talk about everything we want to have, the home you want to build and what we want to do. Most would think it is a long shot, a fairytale or just crazy talk but it feels so perfect and like it will become complete. It seems like a fantasy but it is indescribably real.

Now only after a short time passing, I know the idea of us will in time become actuality and it will be everlasting. Just the idea alone brings me happiness and improves my outlook. I put all my faith in hoping it will be true. Destined for the future is where we will be.

True to the Core

A common man in stature, with a smile to lure you in and an aura to keep you longing for more. The first impression of him may come off as a bit sarcastic and harsh but don let his brutally honest personality hide the true, kind-hearted individual he is. In just a short conversation with him, you will soon find that his priorities in life lie in his family and friends. The ones he surrounds himself with are the ones he would do anything for. It is easy to instantly feel comfortable around
him and see that he is truly genuine. He possesses a fun, loving attitude that is impossible to not get along with. He can make you laugh with his clever jokes and witty, often dirty remarks. Whether you are laughing with him or at him, you can help but love him. He makes it interesting and there is never a dull moment that won entice you to decipher this amiable character. Especially if he has his boots on, anything is possible and you better watch out. He just might get a little feisty and aggressive on you, but it all in good, lovable fun.

Just from the experiences he tells, the conversations he has and the influence of being around him, you l see that he enjoys the little things life offers. Like the fond memories he has of Thanksgiving dinners and family celebrations that brought everyone together as one, to the more common weekends of 4-wheeling with his buddies on the long, hot summer days, working on his truck, fishing and barbeques. These are the events that fill his body with excitement and his mouth with stories. These simple pleasures are what bring him the most enjoyment and happiness. This is what he lives for, what he is all about and shows the kind of guy he is. He doesn care much about the latest product on the market or the celebrity craze but rather about how your mom is doing. As long as he is around the ones he loves, he doesn need anything else. He is easy to please, simple in needs and wants. Give him some good ol country music, some friends to kick back and relax with, a few cold ones to throw down and he living the life. It not about how many friends he has, but the quality of lifelong, true friends he is blessed with. He is the kind of friend that everyone searches for, always willing to give an extra hand, useful advice and an ear to listen. The whole package, we all want a piece of.

While his personality is easy-going and exhilarating, he still gets the job done. He understands that it takes hard work to be successful. More than the work itself, he has to feel a sense of accomplishment. He doesn want anything handed to him and has earned everything he has.
Far from the southern California ways he was born in, living in Oklahoma is where his heart belongs and where he is proud to call home. Never really feeling the need to stray far from the comfort he has found, where he has everything and everyone he will ever need to live his life, his way. No world class traveling, pricey luxuries or big fame and fortune can make up for or subdue where his journey has brought him. He is happy with where he is, who he has and what he has. His travels have lead him back and forth and all around, but always for a good reason; family. Leaving his lifestyle to be closer to his sick grandma, shows just one way in which he values family above all else. It is these traits and morals that have been passed down to create the person he has become and will be continued into a family of his own.

He is very humble, which is shown by the way he regards the battle for his life he survived as a young boy, where his guardian angels were on his side. A near death experience that would cause most of us to live it forever and possibly feel sorry for ourselves. He would never use the accident as an easy way out or an excuse, which so many would take advantage of. Rather he uses it as an inspiration that he was meant to do more, get more out of life.

He has the mentality to always be honest in every situation and with everyone. This proves to be a hard trait to come by these days, with so many superficial people that care more about jeopardizing their own image than being truthful to others. He is willing to take the risk if it ultimately means helping someone out. You will never have to worry about him holding anything from you, lying or avoiding a problem, he will always tell you how it is and how he feels, whether or not it what you wanted to hear. He won cherry coat the truth either. This can be rude or offensive at first but actually shows that he is real. To sum it up; he rather be hated for who he is, than loved for who he not. He is what he is and always will be. I wouldn say he is completely stuck in his ways, but rather knows what he wants and how to get it. He won undermine new experiences or others opinions until he tries it and gives everything and everyone a fair chance. It is just another characteristic added to the list that makes him such a great friend and a genuine person.

It is easy for some to say, they would give the shirt off their back or give their life for the ones they love, but this holds true with him. He is a giver by nature and would never expect or want anything in return. He is modest and never does it for the recognition or to blow his own horn, but because he truly cares. He rather take the blame or cover the bar tab than jeopardize a friendship or relationship with those close to him.

This is Shaun Henry Welch, true to the core. A good friend, an honest person and a caring individual. Someone I am proud to call my boyfriend and lucky to have in my life.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Personal Interview

“It was exactly what I had been wanting.” She had it all at the time. Well, at least everything she thought she wanted. What she had been working hard to achieve for so many years. It had finally arrived, she was excited to explore and experience this next stage of her life. Her path was set with everything she had dreamed of. It sounded like a perfect situation to be in with the world at her fingertips and nothing to hold her back.

Between early morning practices, evening workouts and weekend weight training, sports were her life at the time. Overlooking the sore and tired body it was the best thing for her. As fulfilling and glorifying as it was for her team to win League Champions in basketball or make it to Nationals in track, it wasn’t about the competitions, but about what she personally gained along the way. It was more valuable than any lesson learned in a textbook or a class, but the personal journey she followed. What she learned and experienced in every moment, the obstacles she battled through and the successes she achieved. It all instilled values, traits and work ethics that will forever trail her in every situation she encounters. It is where she made her best friends, most memorable memories, priceless skills and most of all it is where she found herself. It is what has shaped who she is today. The involvement and support that sports provided in her life, is what helped her survive in what can be a rough and intimidating world, full of pressure and influences. A place where it is essential to have an outlet or group of friends to help make the years easier. Or else you become a lost soul in the cruel tangle of High School. The hard work, dedication and desire to succeed ingrained by coaches and teammates made her even more passionate towards her aspirations. The long, hard, exhausting hours of practices and training proved well worth it when the day came for her to sign the letter of intent to compete for Div. 1 UC Irvine. The numerous Saturdays spent taking the SAT to increase her score for acceptance seemed like a small sacrifice to make for a dream come true.

“I was nervous and excited for the change and next step in my life.” The day had arrived for her to break away from her safety zone and step into a world of unknown. A world where she had imagined being so wonderful in a place she felt would be so comfortable.

Before long, the picture she had painted in her head, turned out to be far from the reality she was facing. She felt lost in the thousands of students, lost in the big city, lost her love of the sport, lost in her own body. Feeling so far from the hometown and lifestyle she was raised in. Wanting to resort back to the days when everything was natural and instinctive, where things felt right. But not wanting to completely give up on the idea of a new environment and experience. Not wanting to sell it short or give it a full opportunity to be fulfilling. Not to say she didn't gain anything from her time in this place that felt so supernatural, so far from what she imagined. She built lifelong friendships, learned valuable lessons, made lasting memories, and realized what she truly wanted for herself. She didn't want to look back at what is said to be the "best years of one's life" with any regrets. It was something that couldn’t be returned, once it was gone it would be lost eternally and all that would remain are the memories.

It was this time in her life, where she finally gained the courage and strength to go against what everyone else expected of her and change her course. This was one of the hardest challenges and decisions for her to overcome. Being the passive, easy going, people pleaser she had always been known as. Her head was leading her toward the path of logical persuasion to suck it up and pull through. While her instincts were guiding her in the direction of what her heart wanted. Deep down she knew she needed to pursue her emotions and break free to a better place. She knew that only she had the power to create her own happiness, it was her life and she could do what she wanted with it. As incredibly hard and stressful as it was to leave this place, she knew it had to be done or she would forever hold a grudge against herself. She could have continued on with it, day in and day out living a facade that she was content, but she didn't want to live a lie. She had seen it happen to too many others around her, going on with the actions of life, but not actually living or experiencing it. Often times people get so caught up in their daily monotonous routines that before they know it, years have passed and they don't even know who or what they are anymore. They do what they think they "should" be doing, become who they think they "should" be, but not actually living for what they want. We thrive off of what other people think of us and the image we posses that we totally forget about ourselves and our feelings of self worth.

She constantly questioned her intentions and judgments; often times trying to justify and create irrational reasons as to why she should stay. Trying to make believe that her portrait of this new place and new milestone she had created in her head was too much of a dream, from any possible reality. Thinking it wasn’t as bad as she made it seem and talking herself out of the truth, to make it feel right. Telling herself she could survive just three more years, that it is a short time when looking at her whole life. That it will be all be fine when she is done, she can't do any better than where she was. Even though all along she knew it wasn't where she was supposed to be. It wasn't where she felt at home but rather the idea of where she thought she was supposed to be. Where she felt it was expected of her to be. After all the hard work it took to get to this place and investing so much expectancy to just be disappointed in the process. With so much blessed to her, to just throw it all away seemed irrational, stupid. She felt as though she was not only letting herself down, but her teammates, coaches, and family. Saying goodbye to all of that, closing the door on it was tough but it opened a new door to places and things that non existent before. It actually proved easier than expected to transition to a new world, because it was where she wanted to go and what she wanted to do. The people that mattered supported her decision. Leaving actuality behind, but carrying the experience along with her as she ventured into another unknown made her truly see that to be at peace with others and everything that surrounds us, we have to be at peace with ourselves.

She gained the greatest wisdom of all knowing it wasn’t about the scholarship, the school, the people, the sport. It was about understanding herself and her own personal desires. If you're not happy than recognize change needs to be made. No matter how hard it is or how much has already been invested, it will be worth it in the end. It may take a while until you find where you are destined to be, but it is a short time in retrospect to a lifetime wasted. The worst thing is to look back at your life with regrets. Everything, every obstacle or triumph along our travels happens for a reason. Sometimes to reinforce what we already know, other times to teach us a lesson. This experience taught her to trust her instincts and it reinforced that her heart will guide in the right direction. We have no one else to blame but ourselves for how our lives pan out. Never become a prisoner of your own circumstance or feel confined at where you're at. We are free at any time.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Changing Times


In the beginning, I imagine things were easier. People lived simpler lifestyles and enjoyed the little things. It wasn’t about the house you had, the car you drove or the clothes you wore, but about who you were. Not about comparing materialism and success, but enjoying the company of one another and the time shared with them. People cared about each other and made an effort to get involved in their lives, not only for their own good. Helping one another out when times were tough was an instinct, not a favor. Things weren’t done for the fame, fortune or acknowledgement, but from the goodness within. Values and morals stood strong and abundant. People were happy about who they truly were, not creating a façade to believe they are somebody else. People were praised and idolized for being real life heroes and role models, doing great things to contribute the world, not for having money or status. People actually had time to spend with their family, not just completely consumed by work. People didn’t flyby with everywhere to go and nowhere to hide, but were able to slow down and take it in. Chaos and commitments weren’t controlling lives. Technology didn’t take over yet and people actually communicated on a personal level. Stories and traditions were passed down, not DVD’s. People entertained one another, not i-pods, cell phones and wiis. Family dinners were home cooked, not fast food. Families stayed together, not in different states. Reputations were something to be proud of, not give up on. Kids actually played outside, not zoned out in front of the TV or video games. Parents felt safe letting their children out in public, not worries they may go missing, raped or killed. Houses were left unlocked, trusting their neighbors, never thinking about criminals, intruders or thieves. Sunday was a day of rest and religion, not another day to get things done. School was a safe place to learn, not buy drugs and get shot. People read books, not computer screens. People were living off of cash, not credit. Being in debt wasn’t the norm. Sex was for married couples, not kids. Punishment was brutal, but lessons were learned. You did the crime, you paid the price. People had to work hard for everything they had. Welfare and government assistance wasn’t handed out. Families could afford houses, not struggling to pay rent. The ratio of births to deaths each year was relatively equal, not imbalanced. News was of actual importance, not celebrity gossip. Outer image didn’t distract from inner beauty.

Sure a lot of things have improved from previous eras. Segregation, healthcare, technology, education and globalization, just to name a few. As the days go bye, weeks pass on and the years turn into generations, everything transforms. When the times change, so do the people and so does society. Is it for the better or is it only getting worse?

Monday, February 2, 2009

One with the Wild


Feeling like an eagle soaring through the open air across the miles. Strong, independent and free to take on all that is blown this way. At ease and comfort in the peacefulness of pure nature. At a safe distance high above the ground, in a different world far from the urban forest below. Resisting the temptation to get lost in the night sky with only the moon guiding the way. Wait until the sun rises with a better idea of where to go. Feeling like the only one in the sky at times and lost in the crowds of chaos at others. Not guided by what the herds, society and media want. Free to roam and create an individual path paved for a destination with no boundaries. Flying alone or in the midst of the pack, no journey is too challenging to survive. Focused to soar far and fulfill all dreams imagined. Often flying by too fast with no time to rest or soak it the surroundings. Need to remember to just cruise through and look around. Following no planned direction, only an idea of a route to migrate. Feeling lost at times and in total control at others. Never forgetting to go back to the roots of the tree where the nest of this life was formed. Not straying too far from the morals and values that were ingrained. Staying steady and calm as the stream flowing beneath but also able to let loose with the wild wind that flows across the terrain. One half is confined to the ways of the world living calm, cool and collective. While the other half is pushing its limits to live on the edge of excitement. A good balance to an undefinable travel. Striving for adventure and new occurrences to mix up the normality. Wanting to see and experience all that is possible. Never becoming too enraged by the problems of the wild but rather more restrained to work it out in the tranquility of peace. Just flowing with the direction of the wind, not knowing what is up ahead. Wondering which way it will lead but trusting with heart and soul it will be okay. Believing that fate along with perseverance will guide this life to destiny. Excited to experience the future but living in the moment. Working towards creating the dream imagined of a family of our own, a house to call home, the one to be with until eternity and conquering all my aspirations.

Perched high on the side of a mountain top when things get too tough, to gaze over everything from afar. A break from life in the wild and the stress that comes with it. Seeing everything that has already been blessed this way. Taking the time to breathe and enjoy the simple things, the natural beauty that surrounds us. Walking on the beach on a sunny summer’s day, hiking up a mountain to see breathtaking views, watching the different colors of the sun as it sets over the horizon.

High above the greediness of the world below, it is easier to notice true inner beauty and not get pulled down into the shallowness of many. What you see flying through the thin air is what is real, no facade. When the hunting and gathering of the day is done, when all the obligations are finished, the eagle can set sail with no worries weighing down. Getting the job done but having fun. Everyday is a new opportunity for a another unforgettable memory.

Always flying over to check on the ones that matter most: family and friends. Ready to pick you up out of the tear filled water when your days are dark, an extra wing to help get your feet on the ground and a defender against your predators. Don’t follow what the call of the wild yells but by feeling the heart and the natural instincts it possesses. Worked hard to get everywhere this life has migrated, not taking the easy flight. Helped out others in every way known and been true to a fault. Hoping the perception of a fulfilling life ahead will be more than imagination but a reality. Determined to get the most of out of this existence, being able to enjoy all it has to offer.
Most important in this life are the ones who join us on our journey through the air, the experiences made everyday and following the passion that burns deep within. Not about the objects we accumulate or the money we make but the memories created. For those are the only things we can take with us on our ascending flight to the heavens.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Column: Performance enhancing drugs taking away from athletics

Marion Jones, Barry Bonds are among the list of admirable athletes that have tested positive for performance drugs. The Olympic games, aren’t they the best athletes in the world? Shouldn’t we look up to them as role models? It is unfortunate that so many of them have fallen into the dark side of drug use. In today’s harsh reality it is hard to truly admire some when we know it is not always just the athletes themselves competing, but combined with some assistance. Many elite, respectable athletes have taken performance enhancing drugs and it has become even more apparent in the last few years.

Competing professionally and at the college level can be very overwhelming. The advantages of being a respected athlete brings with it much stress and hard work. With influence from coaches, teammates, and themselves, athletes feel they always need to be better. They are never satisfied and are always looking for ways to improve and increase their performance.
With so much pressure in sports, athletes feel like they have to do more than what they are physically capable of doing to prepare for competition. Maximizing workouts, following strict diet plans, and mentally preparing are not enough these days to keep up with the level of intensity it is at. Athletes feel pressured into trying anything that will benefit their game.

Our bodies can naturally only get so big, strong, and fast that they eventually reach a physical plateau. It is hard to see any big improvements and becomes more about maintaining physical strength, rather than increasing. It is our body’s way of saying they have taken enough or reached maximum capacity. But that does not satisfy most athletes in todays field of sports. So, that is when steroids and other physically altering drugs come into use.

In this generation, with the world of athletics becoming so overpowered by steroids and other performance drugs, athletes feel they have to "give in" to be on a level playing field with everyone else. Not to say that in anyway is that a justifiable reason for taking any sort of drug, but it’s just the reality of it. In truth to keep up with the high level of competition, one who is naturally trained, can’t compare to those that are naturally and chemically prepared. It is very sad that this is what sports are coming to and how it has changed tremendously from what it use to be. Also, to think that all these fit, healthy athletes would hurt their bodies like they do with these drugs. Sure their is a short lived advantage for them, or so they want to believe, but in reality the long term effects have lasting consequences. Steroids and other drugs have horrific results, possibly death. The outcome isn’t worth the price they pay when dealing with steroids.

If you look at different records in sports from previous eras contrasted with the records of today, it is a drastic difference. Race times cut, baseball homerun records smashed, league leaders and season totals always getting better. Every sport is affected by changing times and every sports has transitioned from past eras. Along with new times comes new technology, knowledge and research. This creates the most efficient and up to date workouts, training, supplements, and diets for athletes. But unfortunately also shows how much drugs have influenced and impacted the performances of many of todays athletes. It probably seems like I’m accusing all athletes today are druggies which is far from true. I know most athletes do work very hard to get to their success. Just like with everything else, it is the few bad ones that ruin the reputation for everyone. Unfortunately, it is now a stereotype that any good athlete, must have taken steroids. It is a bad reputation that has been created, especially for the true athletes, which is most that work hard for everything they have earned.

Is it because people are becoming more lazy and don’t want to work as hard? That they have to rely on drugs to help them compete? Is it taking the easy way out? Whatever it may be, it is a huge problem today that affects all aspects of sports and takes away from what they use to be.
It is fairly recent that the steroid fad has become popular. Yes, there are random drug tests and ways to detect use, but unfortunately not enough of it. Or it comes out too late, like previously in the olympics and the final results are effected and have to be corrected.

I wonder if drug induced athletes feel like anything less or that they are cheating themselves out of their own success. Once caught or tested positive, it will never be lived down and even if you continue to compete with your own physical strength it will be hard to overcome your previous reputation. Sure there are "legal" forms of performance enhancing assistance, not necessarily drugs. Such as blood doping and creatine. Things that our body naturally produces, but in higher quantity can improve your game even more. No matter what it is or how you categorize it, they are all additives to your body. Yes, some are not as bad as others, but it is still taking away from your own physical capability. Whatever happened to the good old days when steroids or other drugs weren’t even an option?